This time last year.....

I have written words and deleted them. And rewritten and again deleted. Do I post what is going on in my head or not....

Do I write about the time where everything is getting super exciting this time last year and write only the good stuff or do I talk about the dark storm as well????

This day last year was gearing up to be a good day. Son and fiance booked to get hair did. I was booked in to see my beautician. And it was to be my Hens night! But that morning, it all went horribly twisted.

My husband to be got a call to help find his best friend. He had spent the previous night, week, weeks, trying to help him out of this mental fog that seemed to have taken over. He was away for a couple of hours before he called me to tell me the most devastating news..... 

My darling tried so, so hard but nothing could help. It still feels like it just happened. at the same time it feels like a bizzare dream.

You just never know who will be affected by the terrible Depression, Anxiety, mental illness knows no bounds. And it is definitely not something to hide in a locked cupboard. It is not the same for everyone either. But I know that it isn't easy to talk about, or identify.

We absolutely did not think that we would be getting married the following week without my darlings best friend beside him. But so thankful for the 11 brothers/cousins that stood in his place to support the love of my life,  my bestie, my co-captain. My husband. We have come through this year, more in love, even more tighter then ever before.